4.06.2005

how

how do you approach grace?

how should you approach grace?

how must you feel if you suddenly realize you have in your possession a gift so blessed it overwhelms you, it pricks you and insults your utter inadequacy?

must you ask for a justification?

the pope

is dead. and i have a little story to tell.

1995 was world youth day. it was also the my first year in ateneo. i joined my local church in the world youth day celebration. we sang and danced and prayed and slept at luneta overnight. the next day, we woke up to the specter of nearly getting trampled by the huge throng.

but i got to see the pope in his passing popemobile while we were looking for a place to pee.

it has been a long time ago. at the same time, it's felt like a blur.

and although looking at cnn, i felt a certain longing for 1995, a certain loss with the death of this man, it was also inevitable of me to feel, certainly, hindi na ako yun.